What? You tell me it's been more than 6 mths already??

OH! I've got me a new hairstyle, landed me a new job (but still in the same company), had a holiday with daddy and mommy, and moving to our very own home very soon! Cheers to all that!

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Nerd!

Happy New Year!

Is it a long time since I have last posted something here? ... I guess so...

Roy and Raine are growing up so fast, we can have conversations all the time. Roy is really sweet, and Raine is testing her limits.

I've fallen in love with scrapbooking, and I've had a holiday this year. Just myself and friends... I received a PSP as a gift, I changed my diet habits and I've decided to sell my scrapping services. We're moving to our very own home next year, and I am really looking forward to it. I've re-found fun in my life, and I'm enjoying work more than before because of people who make the environment fun. I've found my direction in life, but I'm not sure if I can go forward in that direction...

Anyway, here's some new pics!

It's Addictive!!

Go play!

Cubiz 2

I love 林宥嘉

Ok, like, not relevant la.

Met up with Wen Wen today for lunch, but unfortunately, not hungry at all!! GRRRrr.

AND THIS GIRL IS HAVING A BABY GIRL END-SEPT! MY GOD!!!

I can't believe this!

We are growing up too fast!! Is that a very comical phrase to use? Hahaha

I was telling her that it seems like only yesterday we were still students man... Time really flies... And to think our conversation topics have changed from schoolwork to work to kids and brands of diapers and formula! Gosh! This is all happening too fast... I really miss my young days... The addition of Tony to our department didn't do any good to this wish cos he only made me wish harder that I was young again.. Not that I'm very old ... but... you know la.

Oh, was at Partyworld with UWI girls and a guy on Monday, and had loads of fun!.. Laughed and laughed and laughed. And then it was back to work again the next day.. Kua kua kua... Somedays I wished I didn't need to work. But I know this job keeps me sane. Really. Although things happen at work that sometimes make me feel like I'm going insane, it really keeps me sane cos this job gives me something to do, instead of staying at home facing 2 monsters all day long.

These kids are really cute and sweet, but it's no joke looking after them all day long. Last Sunday when Sonia was on her off day, I almost pulled my hair out looking after three babies. 1 old and 2 young.

Last night, Roy was at his aunt's place when I reached home. Came hugging my legs when he came back and noticed that his sister's pajama top's buttons were undone. Guess what he did? He said "妹妹来, kor kor 帮你 button. 不要哭啊." And I asked him, "你会吗?" To which he candidly replied "不会".

DIAOZZzzzzzzzzzzzz

But you have to agree that he's really cute right..

KIDS! They really say the darndest things.. hahahaa

It's been so long...

Yeah. Don't even get me started on the whys.

Been having a helluva busy time at work, what with the monitoring reports and mess to clean up. However, with the addition of 2 new colleagues recently, life has been pretty much cool. Both youngsters, very fun-loving, making me find my old mischievous self at work again. I just hope I can get this self in control. Ha ha.

So. Much has happened, especially over the last 1 week that I feel so bogged down and have no mood for anything, not even the kids. I just have this urge to go work everyday. die liao.

Have been listening to classical a lot these few days, especially Chopin and Mozart, and some JS Bach. The music seems to liberate me! And the soundtrack for Secret, when I found out (rather late) that most of it was composed by Jay... Makes me love him even more.. Haa~~

And, also been listening to 林宥嘉's 背影 for a large part of today already. Somehow this song strikes a particular chord in my heart? But I can't explain it. Heh. It's nice la.. Make that very nice for me. And the other day, somebody intro-ed a song to me, 桥段 sounds very much like Jay, even the style but, just not quite Jay. Nice song too though.

Why am I starting to sound like someone who writes reviews? Haa and hubs has gone out with the brother... So I'm glad I've this time to finally write something here again.

And, the kids are growing up so fast, I am constantly amused at the things Roy does to his sister. I'm hearing him tell his sister to say goodnight to kor kor, or say hello to mummy and things like that. He even eats his meals on his own now! Have I ever mentioned that?? His sister's favourite words are Mummy and Papa. She uses them all the time, whenever daddy and mummy are in her line of vision. Cutesy and sweet, this honeypie.

Hubby has been kinda sweet lately, I sometimes wonder if he's feeling something different for me? Did something wake him up or what?

I don't know what will ever make me give these up. =)

断了的弦

The title is quite irrelevant.

Coming to the end of Jan 2008, but feel that nothing is quite as good as last year, so far.

You know when sometimes you just know that things are not quite the same anymore but you just try to imagine they are, and try to live life as if they really are?

I know I probably sound incoherent, but this blog is really not as private as I'd like it to be.

I have this very strong desire in me to seriously hurt someone, the way this person hurt me or even more. It's damn unhealthy la but seems like time doesn't really heal all wounds, in fact, time could make it worse if the right medications are not used.

Anyway, life kinda sucks all round. Bad start to the year. To begin with, last year was a bad ending at work, resulting in a bad beginning.

Now we need to come up with solutions to start monitoring everything, and it's stupid. Can you imagine coming up with monitoring systems to monitor the work performance of executives? This is really dumb. Worse is having to come up with Excel worksheets with automated monitoring tools. They sent me to the Excel Expert course but that course isn't really at expert level. Which means the course content was kinda useless for the type of worksheets we are required to come up with.

The things I would really like to do now are to attend 6-sigma courses and take up a diploma in business process re-engineering. That's the direction I want to go. Then I want to start my own business improving processes for organisations, big or small, profit or non-profit, educational or commercial. I'll take on whatever comes.

URGH

I can't take that pain away. I don't think anything or anyone can. HELP!

That time of the year

It's December again! December has many meanings for me.

1. BONUS!!
2. Christmas!!
3. First Christmas for Raine, second for Roy.
4. Shopping spree at Shu Uemura
5. My birthday!!

Ok, bonus = lump sum of money = nice Christmas gifts for the kids, hubby and myself and of course not forgetting all the good friends I have made during my time with TMALS. They're probably not going to see this entry, but really thanks to Kristy, Vivian and Venus for giving me all that moral support when I much needed it. Thanks to Ervinna when I needed someone to talk to at 6.45 in the morning because of a stupid bitch who was going to spoil my life but thankfully also because of her, and I mean the stupid bitch, my life is a bed of roses again. Ok, how did I get here? I was supposed to be talking about why my bonus is good for me, man. So much for digressing.

So, Christmas means I will get to shop for gifts, indulge in the festive mood, and of course, to receive Christmas presents. Christmas also means I have an excuse to buy expensive things for people I really love. Like Hubby. Like Roy. Like Raine.

Christmas does not have any special meaning for the kids, because they do not understand. But I will help them understand my meaning of Christmas. Ha ha ha.

And, point 5 and 6 come hand in hand. After Christmas comes my birthday. Ok, that's not really relevant. What's relevant is, December is the only time I can get my favourite cosmetics and skincare items from Shu Uemura at 80% of the usual price because it's my birthday month! Yay! I'm running out of loose powder, premium A/O purifier and my staple skincare item, the Classic purifier. It's also time to try out new colours, buy some makeup tools, get my moisturiser, change my foundation type .... what else?? Get a new job? Ok not relevant.

Anyway, next month's gonna be appraisal time again. I hope I get the review I want. If not, I'm leaving this company. If they can't appreciate someone who is serious in making real contributions to the company, then I'm gonna take my ideas somewhere else cos it's really no joke working till 10 or 11pm but being paid low wages and even worse, all efforts unknown to the higher management.

Brought the kids to the pool today, Roy was really giving me a hard time while Raine put on the sweetest behaviour I have ever seen in her entire lifetime. Anyway, we had dinner at Swensen's and headed home after that cos Hubby and I were going to catch The Tattooist at the cinema. I can't believe this. This is the first time in ages where I really felt like blogging. Look how my words and ideas are flowing? Haha. Anyway the movie was quite good though it wasn't thrilling enough. It didn't really make my heart race or startle me as much as The Vacancy did.

I'm supposed to be sleeping now. What am I doing at this hour?? Roy's not sleeping well now because the laptop is on and my fingers are tapping furiously on the keyboard. I suddenly feel like going to bed. How? Feel like shopping as well.

Then I also feel like doing nasty things to someone. You know how some things happen and you can't really get over it and you just feel like hurting the other person to the same extent as how you were hurt by them but you just know you shouldn't, cos it would bring you to the same level as them and, it probably wouldn't do much for the hurt. But you just want to hurt that person anyway.

Ok, I think I should stop thinking about this now and go to sleep. It's already 4am. I know this is a lousy way to end this entry but I know I have to stop or it'll probably go on and on, for another 2 weeks and 4 days.

Goodnight, or rather, good morning.

Of all things sweet and nice

Gosh! It's been 2 months since I last posted something here!!!

Latest updates:

• Roy is more expressive and very thoughtful towards his baby sister.


• Raine is starting to walk! She'd walk a few steps, sit down, stand and walk a few steps again. All this at only 10 months of age!

Hubby is sweet and thoughtful nowadays, and spends lots of time with me. He even bought me one of my favourite games with expansion packs, and sits beside me to play together. He'd take me to dinner, to movies, shopping ... Just the other day he came to pick me up at my office for lunch and we went to Central to see some rings and bring Weijian to Jeff's workplace for interview. After that we walked back to Central again, and went to see some clothes and nail colours. We picked one in blue and another in orange then went back to Compasspoint to get another expansion pack for the game.

Life has been pretty good, only that I'm looking for another job, at junior exec level. I really need my degree to climb higher, I just need to find the time. I'm so overwhelmed at work, I just hope my efforts don't go unnoticed.

Planning to spend a quiet Christmas this year with hubby and the kids, tried to book a chalet online but can't! Very strange! The button disappears whenever I pick the chalet I want. Hmmm. Mom told me to go Downtown East to book in person. Then, planning for a trip next year with hubby but dunno yet where to go. Feel like going to Taiwan, then hope to go to Japan when our finances are less tight.

Raine is smiling at me again, after napping for half an hour. This cheeky girl...

Jay Chou's new album is out! I've been working so much that I didn't even though his concert is going to be in Jan 08! Gosh. I really need to get myself up-to-date.

Have been shopping online lately as well, placed some orders but no news yet. Pre-ordering really takes donkey years. As soon as the winter season is over, I'm going to start shopping online again, cos what they're offering now are mostly winter wear. Hubs thinks dolly dresses are sweet. I think so too. He thinks manicured nails are nice and feminine and he likes them. No wonder he doesn't mind shopping for nail colours with me.

He spends more time with the kids now, and takes them out more often. We've been taking the kids to McDonald's for their hotcakes happy meal breakfast and we can tell they really enjoy it. Roy feeds himself hotcakes with a fork, Raine would be glad to use her hands but it's too messy so we usually feed them.

I really need to diet. I'm looking like I'm in my thirties already.

I'm in LURVE!

with....

this:


and

this:


*pictures from www.sonyericsson.com.sg

Prefer the latter better. Was actually looking at S500i before today until I saw the dummy phone on display. Now, anyone going to buy me one?

Was shopping for JT's gift with NS earlier, went to trim my eyebrows da da da da da... and! chose a sapphire necklace for her.

Was looking at some men's rings and thought of getting one for my dearest hubby. After a huge fight 2 Sundays ago, our relationship has improved. Me more understanding, and him more thoughtful than before; and I'm loving this change. I hope things will only get better, and happily ever after.

Plus, I got promoted at work! *applause*

Be happy for me, ok? Life is like a bed of roses now.

Roy is growing up so fast, he can say things like mama, papa, ahma, yeye, popo, meimei knowing which people these words refer to and it's like, so cool! He does the most adorable things like saying aiyoyo when he drops something, patting his little sister on her chest when she cries, or saying or-or-OR while trying to rock her to sleep. He's growing to be the sweetest brother/son on earth. He'd offer to carry my bag to the room when I get home from work and he'd give me a flying kiss when I go out without him.

And Raine! She's so adorable! She has the sweetest smile on earth, the chubbiest cheeks to kiss and the cutest face that I've ever seen. Love my darlings very much. 2 Saturdays ago I let her have the first taste of porridge and she loved it. Last Thursday I let her have the first taste of cheesecake and she loved it very much. I can tell because she fussed when I was feeding Roy his portion and when I turned to her, she tried to grab the spoon. Roy got to have some cheesecake and some chocolate banana cake and needless to say, he loved them all.

He now likes to sit on my lap regardless of whatever I'm doing, and before he falls asleep, he'd put his head on my shoulder and lie there for a while, before going to sleep in his own space on the bed we share.

I could rattle on and on about the beautiful children I have, and then this post will never end. I shall end it now.

The End

What a lousy ending. See ya.