We almost... ALMOST broke up on Saturday night. Yeah. Guess what happened. He accompanied me back home but refused to walk me up to my door. He refused to get close to me, to have any physical contact with me. Let alone holding my hands and all that. Why?? I was thinking... WHY?

So he said no why. I went into the lift and went up without saying anything to him. then I came down again. He asked me "Why are you here again?" and I received his sms saying "Dun you think we can't click anymore?"

I.Was.Shocked.

I replied him saying "No. I just think you dun love me anymore." "You're so cold even if I try to warm up to you."

I walked away, thinking of cooling off a little at the stone table. He came over and I sms him again, saying "I'm right, no? The silence... I guess everything's over.. Thanks for the good times." Then I stood up and walked away.. Thinking of going home.. BUT he stopped me, "Its not that k.."

"Then what? What do you want me to do or think? What do you want? If you dun love me anymore then what's the point? ........." Well can't remember the rest of what I typed.. ANYWAY I didn't walk back to him but I went to sit down at somewhere near the other end of the block. I din want anyone to see me crying. Yes I was crying. I thought I was numb already.. I THOUGHT I didn't feel anything anymore but when the tears came so naturally... Even I was shocked for a while. So many things going through my mind.

"Two years.. almost two years... "

"We went through so much together.. The ups and downs... Itz over? So fast?"

"What am I gonna do from tomorrow onwards? Stay in my room and cry all day? Go out with my gal pals and enjoy myself all day?"

...[Blah blah blah]...

So in the end we reconciled, he stayed over at my place, we made up, kissed, hugged, and *ahem ahem* and slept like two babies through the night.