Hey... Guess what... The last week has been rather SHIT for me... My results have been shitty... This week too... Talked to Vincent a few times... I really listen to him. When he's talking I give him my full attention and I even reflect and note down whatever points he made that are important to me.


He talked about how I can raise my level of confidence in the field by setting small goals and stuff like that... But only after today did he say that my confidence level is not my actual problem.. My real problem is that I'm still unsure of what to do with my life... He wanted me to think about where I picture myself when I'm 25 years old... Jot down any and every question I have about the business and he'll talk to me tomorrow... Vincent is such a nice "grandpa" (cos Linus is my Daddy.. Heh..) He treats me like a little sister.. I remember Friday night he told me that if I don't crack a minimum of 4 sets I won't get to go for dinner with them on Saturday..~~~ But I did crack 4 sets! Hurray! So that night we actually went to V8 Cafe for dinner lah... After that I shopped around Bugis with Sherry... Almost bought a tube top but I refrained... I wanna start buying clothes from boutiques... Not those roadside stalls... I wanna raise my status.. The brands I wear... The stuff I use... I want a standard where I can afford many things which my peers cannot with the money that I put in hard work and effort to get... That's where the greatest sense of satisfaction is going to come from.


I don't want to be somebody in the morning rush hour crowd.. Sometimes I think to myself, of all the people rushing past me, just HOW MANY of them are pursuing what they really really want for themselves... just HOW MANY are living the kind of life they want... just HOW MANY are prepared for their future... just HOW MANY are going to achieve something for themselves in their short lifespan of... say 60 years..? I know I don't wanna be one of them.... I have a clear picture of the kind of lifestyle I want and I'm going to go for it... No matter what the obstacles may be in front of me.. I want to work hard and enjoy later rather than enjoy now and then SUFFER later...... This business is a school for me and a stepping stone... This business is tough but this is where the toughest people emerge as winners... I know that if I can survive this business, I can survive anywhere. Make any sense to you?

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I finished 330ml of a Paulaner's last night... Having rash like crazy now... Somemore today went to BP area with Shawn.. Damn hot. Ten Mile Junction is like a ghost town.... super ulu. I know I maintained my attitude today... But still no drive to get results... Starting from tomorrow... Since I'm gonna do it, I might as well do it well... !

Juice!