Insecurity

Have been feeling quite insecure about my relationship with hubby recently, don't really know why.. Perhaps it's the pre-menstrual hormones? Yeah man. my menses have returned after close to a year of being menses-free. I HATE IT! Who doesn't? But hubby says it's good, because that means I'm not pregnant. Duh.

Anyway, I'm supposed to talk about insecurity.

So that night, I asked hubby what he likes about me. He said he doesn't like me. BOOHOOHOO! But he loves me. Hee. So I asked again what he loves about me and the answer he came up with?

I'm cute.

Damn! Does that mean that in future when I'm not cute anymore (because I still think I am cute. Ha ha.) he will stop loving me?

He said I was crazy and he loves me for being me, not for anything else. And then he said that I was acting strangely and asked if I was thinking of leaving him for someone else.

Then it became my turn to say he's crazy and then I started to cry.

WHY?!!?!!??

I don't really know why I started to cry, I just felt very insecure and very afraid of him leaving me for someone physically more attractive. Hubby then hugged me and called me a silly girl for thinking about bo liao stuff like these.

I guess I just need to be reassured of his love for me because of the stretch marks and loose skin around my waist caused by my pregnancy. Not to forget the extra weight I put on. I think it's time to start exercising during the weekends when I'm not working.