断了的弦

The title is quite irrelevant.

Coming to the end of Jan 2008, but feel that nothing is quite as good as last year, so far.

You know when sometimes you just know that things are not quite the same anymore but you just try to imagine they are, and try to live life as if they really are?

I know I probably sound incoherent, but this blog is really not as private as I'd like it to be.

I have this very strong desire in me to seriously hurt someone, the way this person hurt me or even more. It's damn unhealthy la but seems like time doesn't really heal all wounds, in fact, time could make it worse if the right medications are not used.

Anyway, life kinda sucks all round. Bad start to the year. To begin with, last year was a bad ending at work, resulting in a bad beginning.

Now we need to come up with solutions to start monitoring everything, and it's stupid. Can you imagine coming up with monitoring systems to monitor the work performance of executives? This is really dumb. Worse is having to come up with Excel worksheets with automated monitoring tools. They sent me to the Excel Expert course but that course isn't really at expert level. Which means the course content was kinda useless for the type of worksheets we are required to come up with.

The things I would really like to do now are to attend 6-sigma courses and take up a diploma in business process re-engineering. That's the direction I want to go. Then I want to start my own business improving processes for organisations, big or small, profit or non-profit, educational or commercial. I'll take on whatever comes.

URGH

I can't take that pain away. I don't think anything or anyone can. HELP!