0311 in the morning..... Thinking about you... Feel like calling you but I already said I'll call you only on Monday...

Think I'm just trying to be cool and act cool about this because I know I really miss you... Though I appear to be unconcerned about us, fact is, I really, really wish that you can give me your fullest support in what I'm doing becaue both you and the biz as well my family are important to me.... I can give up/sacrifice anything for the biz but never my family nor you... This I know clearly... Sometimes I really hate answering to you and I really hate having to keep explaining and hoping that you'll understand that's why sometimes I choose to escape from you by not calling you.... I just hate arguing with you... I hate all this tension... Today when I woke up and didn't feel well, I wanted to call you, spend the day with you but... didn't want to feel like a stranger to you because you no longer have the desire to be with me.... I can feel it.... Sometimes I feel so 'extra' to be around you because we don't talk, we don't touch... We don't communicate anymore.. Sometimes it seems that the only thing linking us together is Softie.... We're like a broken family.. I feel really sad.....